A Good Cry

You know, every now and again, its healthy to have a good cry. I live through a whole week, being busy in a routine, but somehow, I always find myself sad as Sunday arrives. People always told me the last few months are the hardest and now that it's here, I understand what they meant. The light is just around the tunnel, but waking up every day to an empty bed is seemingly depressing. Some days, I feel like I'm reaching the end of my rope and can't take it anymore. It's so hard not to be selfish and think about what's constantly lacking in your life. Let's face it, we all have selfish moments, just some more than others. I'm tired of explaining my situation to people, but delighted they ask how Drew is holding up. Ultimately, I've been spinning my wheels for the last 9 months trying to make things good for us and dealing with each situation as it comes. But, sometimes, it's just easier to crawl in a protective shell and never resurface. I have suppressed so many feelings lately. Some days, I fight with everything I have to hold the tears until I can take advantage of an all-out pity party by myself. Imagining some of the experiences Drew and others have had make my heart crumble into pieces. I can openly say, I could never have the mental stability to witness many of the inevitable situations they are faced with everyday. I just can't say it enough, I am incredibly grateful for people that place themselves in harms way for me.

Many people take advantage of what freedom we have. Time is a priceless possession. Most people who don't agree with war aren't even thankful for the time spent away from home, without their families, and those people should be condemned. That's strictly an opinion I feel very strongly about. I promised myself a very long time ago, that I would be more thankful for the smaller things in life we surpass while reaching for the bigger things. Sure, we have a nice house and nice things, but we've yet to share it with each other. That day can't come soon enough. I pray the Lord allows me to be humble and He reminds me of these feelings when I do become selfish. Pray that we have the strength to make it the next few weeks! Soon, I will have something VERY happy to write about! :0) Promise...

Be good,