Lessons learned...

Just in the last several weeks, I have hit an epiphany with a lot of things going on in my life, and I won't talk about them in particular here, but just on a lesson learned basis. I've learned to be more cautious of who you welcome into your life because you never know when they will decide to no longer see you as a part of theirs and that plainly sucks. It's something we all face and have to learn eventually, but I've never experienced it to this degree before. Some things, I have fought tooth and nail for and some things I stand firmly and believe in with all my heart and soul. At some point, you have to ask yourself, "why am I doing this, and why do I feel this way?" And most of the time, I can't answer myself, its just something we do right? Why do people feel it's necessary to hurt one another, to lie, to be deceitful? Let's face it, an apology doesn't heal everything, especially when it's never sincere.

I suppose, this is why some people never learn to love again, trust again, or hope again. This is why people are guarded and reserved, because they are terrified to experience that situation all over again. I've always said, "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." <----this quote is one of the only reasons why I've held on for as long as I have. I'm quickly learning the paths to never travel again, and the paths to hang on and enjoy the ride. I'm choosing today, right now, to never travel some of those paths again, for they only hurt and disassemble pieces of my heart to places I should've never allowed them to reach. We live and learn, and today is a new day. "Trust in the Lord and lean not own your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." - Proverbs 3:5. <---the most amazing verse by the way...!!

My husband is coming home soon, and I want to be the most joyous, christian lady he could ever dream of! We all have our faults, but some are to late to recognize and fix, or some just plainly don't care. Which ever path you choose, I hope you're making the right decision, for it may affect you the rest of your life. Pushing people away will never be the answer, and the more you push, the farther you're pushing yourself from something you've worked so hard to create.

I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend! I look forward to seeing most of you throughout the Holidays and maybe sooner! Thanks for listening...