So, we are closing definitely this FRIDAY! I'm excited and sad all in the same expression. I should be sharing this joy with Drew and that's what makes me sad. I feel guilty because he, among others, allow me to enjoy this freedom and he can't even be here. I know ultimately, I am doing the right thing and I know Drew is so happy, but I'm having a tough time coming to terms with shutting one door and opening another. I am more than ready to get out of this apartment, but we've shared a lot here and I will leave behind many dried tears. I've had many dreary, cold, lonely nights here, but many joyous occasions as well. I'm going to remain positive and be excited for what we've worked so hard for all this time, through all the sadness, lonesome feelings, and all the obstacles we continue to face.
I haven't been as focused on Drew lately because of all the busy work I've had to put into the house. I guess, that's maybe why I am having guilty feelings. However, I will be moving this whole weekend and getting the house "spruced" up for Drew's home coming party! :) Wish me luck!
Oh, by the way...if anyone was planning on sending Drew a box...don't. I'll explain later. Just hang on to it for now until I give you the "okay"!
Missing someone is a part of loving them, so in that category, I give myself an A+++++++!!!
- Night night all...
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